26th may 2015 ....
What a day !! first i was happy but then for some bizarre reason i felt low and fed up, we planned on going out but a friend we would have met wasn't in so we stayed in.
all day i was grumpy and upset ! at one point i was sat thinking does my husband actually love me or is he here just because there's nowhere else to go.
everytime i get in one of these moods i think of harming myself but i just look at the kids and remember how heartbroken they will be.
it sucks feeling like this it comes from nowhere can't help it why does it happen ?
why can't i just speak to the hubby ! every time i want to i get all upset and can't speak and i think he will tell me to stop being a idiot i probably am but i cant help it !
on a happier note my charlie bear has learnt to wave !!! <3 how cute !