Dearest Diary

This week has been a low week .... not only have i been really low someone i care alot about told me they have depression (i always knew they had just chose to block it out)  and they thought about killing them self  its really upset me because  that person is a close person  and my life wouldnt be the same without them !
We went to visit a dear friend margaret whos 78 year old  she still bounces about like a teen the docs have told her to slow down  because of her heart  but she dont listen she is such a lovly person, you wouldnt think she was 78 lol  !  she lives in skegness with her husband colin we always go for a stroll and a spot of dinner its the one place we feel at ease  and dont come away stressed !

 also this week i visited my father !  now my second born jessica was always frightend of them and others as a baby until the age of 3 i have no idea why or what for  they dont hurt them.
now my littlest one is scared of them  screamed the place down, had to walk out of the room to calm her down she even screamed at my sister. it was horrible i felt so guilty ! if i lived near i would see them all the time she may not be the same ! i really dont know what to do , i think its just the atmosphere  its loud there and quiet at our home  just cant pin point it

Heres a picture of my second born and her grandad a few year back :) x